I just need to let this out, even though I shouldn't. I tried writing a letter and not showing anyone, but I'm being an emotional teenage girl right now, who needs to tell the world about why she's upset. So, since I don't have anyone to tell, and no one really reads this. I'm putting it here... and I'll probably end up deleting it tomorrow because I'll realize it was stupid and negative of me to post it, but I'm posting it. I'm sick of no one knowing what's going on and I'm sick of everyone being afraid to ask.
Sometimes life isn't fair.
I want to be the skinny, talented girl going to China again with all of my friends.
I don't want to be the one who was told that I wouldn't be invited back for reasons I don't know and understand.
I've been dealing with it fine for the past few months, I was just happy for my friends who get to go.
...but for some reason, last night... I just cracked.
Last year I wasn't the skinny, talented girl who deserved to go to China with all of my friends.
For some reason, Heavenly Father decided to let me have opportunity I didn't deserve. For some reason, Heavenly Father felt like I deserved to have adventures and learn some lessons on the other side of the world.
For some reason, life wasn't fair.
It would have been fair for the older, more talented dancers to go. They had worked hard for longer and were much more skilled in both technique and performance than I was. They deserved it, but life wasn't fair, and I took a place that many of them should have had.
For some reason, Heavenly Father wants me to stay on this side of the world this time. He wants me to be the one left behind this time.
For some reason, this time, life is fair.
Guess what... sometimes it's harder when life is fair.
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Friday, October 5, 2012
Thursday, September 20, 2012
The way-too-previous adventure...
Hey, remember how I went and danced in China like... over a year ago?
Well, while I was there I sent out weekly emails to people who love me/ love to stalk me so that they could stay updated on my life. Every once in a while a funny comment would pop out and people would say "OHEMGEE Tiana you are SOOOO funny!" (not quite in that lingo though, because mostly they were Aunts and Uncles and Grandparents) and then I sent my follow up email out and some people were like "You should write a book about what you learned on your adventures!" But... I don't actually think that anyone would read that book... I definitely wouldn't. So... as much as I know you were all dying to turn my emails into a best seller... NO BOOK.
I did however, promise those peeps that I would convert my emails into a blog that has pictures included so that they could read it.
So I started doing that... earlier this week.
Because I might have a SLIGHT procrastination problem.
So really no one cares that I went to China and had awesome experiences anymore.
But I promised.
So... here's the blog: http://www.previousadventure.blogspot.com/
It's not very juicy yet... but I'm going to try to post something every day, and I think in about a week I'll be posting the one about squatters, that one was pretty clever.
There will probably be no one who reads it, because it's kind of boring and in the past.. but I promised, so I'm posting this little link in case someone decides to read my blog one day and sees this and thinks "Wow! I'm so super bored I want to read about stuff that happened a year ago on the other side of the world!".
I'll write a real blog post someday. Sorry they've all been lame as of late (I mean really.. school supplies??? I blogged about SCHOOL SUPPLIES????? Oh well, what's done is done.)
Well, while I was there I sent out weekly emails to people who love me/ love to stalk me so that they could stay updated on my life. Every once in a while a funny comment would pop out and people would say "OHEMGEE Tiana you are SOOOO funny!" (not quite in that lingo though, because mostly they were Aunts and Uncles and Grandparents) and then I sent my follow up email out and some people were like "You should write a book about what you learned on your adventures!" But... I don't actually think that anyone would read that book... I definitely wouldn't. So... as much as I know you were all dying to turn my emails into a best seller... NO BOOK.
I did however, promise those peeps that I would convert my emails into a blog that has pictures included so that they could read it.
So I started doing that... earlier this week.
Because I might have a SLIGHT procrastination problem.
So really no one cares that I went to China and had awesome experiences anymore.
But I promised.
So... here's the blog: http://www.previousadventure.blogspot.com/
It's not very juicy yet... but I'm going to try to post something every day, and I think in about a week I'll be posting the one about squatters, that one was pretty clever.
There will probably be no one who reads it, because it's kind of boring and in the past.. but I promised, so I'm posting this little link in case someone decides to read my blog one day and sees this and thinks "Wow! I'm so super bored I want to read about stuff that happened a year ago on the other side of the world!".
I'll write a real blog post someday. Sorry they've all been lame as of late (I mean really.. school supplies??? I blogged about SCHOOL SUPPLIES????? Oh well, what's done is done.)
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